Why I Can't Tell You

Although there is a very unsettling feeling every time a day passes by that I am still unable to tell you how I really feel about you, I still cannot gather all the strength needed to confess. If only the consequences of my confession were simple, I would have told you right from the very moment when I knew I liked you. But boy, it was that complicated! Primarily, there are my personal issues that I have to overcome myself before disclosing how I feel. The other thing is the impression you would make of me the moment you knew --that troubling possibility that you would go away from me. 

YOU'RE STILL INTO HER AND YOU LONG TO HAVE A LOVE LIFE

I don't want to look like I'm taking advantage of your situation. If I tell you now, you might think that I'm telling you only because I know you're in an emotional dilemma towards her, and that I'm using it for my own gain. Or say I'm seeing light at the end of the tunnel, say you also like me (I'm not saying that you do, just one what-if), I would always think that you settled for me because I am the one available. And you know that I don't like the idea of being second best.

I MIGHT NOT BE SURE IF THIS FEELING IS REAL (but if I'm feeling this, it must be real, right?)

I have been disconnected from my familiar world where I used to have my job that kept me busy. I hate to think that I'm having this feeling for you because you are the one who accompanies me through this moment of confusion in my life, but I also cannot discount the fact that it could be one of the reasons. I feel that I am being so selfish if I confess when, in the first place, I am not at peace with my own feeling.

WE ARE FRIENDS AND I DON'T WANT THAT TO CHANGE (need I say more?)